| Aug. 15th, 2005 @ 11:26 pm (no subject) |
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today i am -------:  Meh
Music--------------: Nirvana-polly
Geoff basically forced me to take the day off school today so we could spend some time together before he had to go back to newy. So we cruised around town for a while- we shopped, had lunch, i found a 5 buck Mogwai cd. We also, ran into his dad which sucked. He gave geoff 250 dollars for no reason at all, thinking a little money now can make up for all those years he neglected Geoff and Andrew. Nan mumbled something under her breath about being scum ha ha ha. I told her not to worry, physically, Mark may be Geoff and Andrews father, but emotionally my dad is. Its weird. Mum was the only real connection Dad and Andrew and Geoff had. I mean they are actually no relation to dad at all, yet when Geoff is home he spends more than 1/2 his time with dad.
I was also thinking that Bonnie doesnt even know Andrew and Geoff are our 1/2 brothers. Its so weird to think Bonnie thinks our dad is their dad. He is, in every sense of the word he took care of them, and still takes care of them when they need it most. But when you really think about it, its such an odd thing.
So many people don't even know this. Geoff and i are so alike its scary, we just turned out exactly the same. And Andrew ahahah i have no idea what Andrew is like. I figured out the other day last time i saw Andrew was last christmas. That 8 months. I havent seen my brother in 8 fucking months. Last time he saw me i had long hair brown and no piercings hahaha. Last time i saw him he was with Daniel and border line anorexic. I want to scream at him. I don't even know how to love him anymore, because i dont know who he is. He is breaking my mothers heart and i want to yell at him. But i wont.
My uncle Trevor was supposed to come home from Papua New Guinea 2 days ago but missed his plane. He shouldve gotten back tonight so i will hopefully see him tomorrow.
Went to watch the girls drama performance this arvo-pissed myself laughing at Jayde being, as luke so aptly called her, the human foghorn ahahha. Cat with a beak hahah.
This was a very emotionally up and down post. Meh. |